It’s hard to differentiate what is delusional, due to Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), and what is genuine self. When i look back on my own journey, things formed intertextually. My true self, with its own inner core of emotions, and its understanding and perception of the external world, is there. But so too are symptoms…
Bipolar and Active Manic States – Play or Not Play?
Bipolar Disorder is characterised by swings between elevated mood (mania) and depression. On the healthier end of mania, the individual can be energetic and highly productive, but in an unhealthy state it can include erratic and impulsive behaviour, poor decision making and insomnia. As its most severe level it can include psychosis (distorted beliefs about…
BDSM Aftercare and Borderline Personality Disorder
We talk about the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) in this post. One core aspect of BPD is the fear of abandonment. There is a reason why NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness puts it on the top of the list, and it’s certainly been the biggest battle for me, personally. BDSM is…
What is Self-Harm?
Most resources will tell you that people who self-harm are seeking emotional relief by self-inflicting pain. Through the presence of pain sensations on your physical level, nerves send signals to the brain and take the mental energy or mental focus away from the intense emotional disturbance from mental issues that one is dealing with. The…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Nature or Nurture? A Personal Story
In my later school years I discovered a website called Recon, which is a cruising ground for gay men into BDSM, kink and fetish. Looking for an escape from my life, i would send messages to thousands of people and i’d be on the site every day. Eventually i met Master Marc, who treated me…
What is BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder)? An Introduction.
Master Marc asked me a few days ago how i knew something i was feeling was Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and not Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). i described it this way. When a trigger event happens, with PTSD you suddenly find yourself dealing with something that has happened to you in the past. But…